Lille 18|11|11
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Cologne 29|11|11
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Antwerp [GT] 30|11|11
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I’m hearing too many “I told you so’s” today.

My friend just texted me to ask how it was and I said it was amazing but that I was not sure what to think about Jared’s stage attitude.
And she said: “Yeah I told you so, that is the reason I walked away while they were performing at festivals before…”
Ah well. Still can not make up my mind.
Do still love him like crazy, don’t worry!

I want to write down my Lille story and see if any picture turned out to be okay but my friend is still sleeping…

I am SO tired, I don’t even know why I woke up at 9:50 already. Adrenalin is still running through my veins.
And I still feel extremely confused.
Want to go back to normal blogging but I will probably keep whining for a few days.

Jared Leto was just in front of me.

And now he’s a million miles away from me.
Fangirling again.
Feel like my heart just got torn apart.

I should really go to sleep… It’s 3:06AM

I’m in bed and my friend is asleep already in the bed next to me. I’m just so awake - tired but there’s so much on my mind. I wish I could write the whole story down right now because I am afraid I will forget about the details. But I really need my laptop for that (still blogging from my phone).

I feel so incredibly confused, actually. As if my heart and mind are fighting. I’m not even sure what I feel or think.

I’m so confused about Jared. I’ve always known he’s acting like a whore on stage, I know the way he talks to his fans sometimes and I’ve been very clear about my opinion on that before, but it was weird to see with my own eyes.
It was like… I don’t know - I felt like I have not been using my brain before. Just laughing about things I usually hate in people.
I obviously like it when he’s running around with his tongue out of his mouth and showing his nipples but DAMN. I think i like him more for his intelligence, his artistic side… When I see him on stage like this, I seriously think: is THIS man that much of an inspiration to me? It really makes me feel stupid.
I think I am really afraid of the actor in him.

Mind is not working right now so it probably won’t make sense and I might have changed my opinion by tomorrow.
But I am SO glad I have a GT for antwerp so I will at least have the chance to look him in the eye and see him the way I want to see him.

Did I just bitch about Jared?
Yes.

We were just talking about Jared in the car

And I randomly mentioned “He does have beautiful eyes though!”
My friend just looked at me like; oh, really?
It feels like I just found about Jared Leto or something.

By the way, I forgot to look at Jared’s dick.

I don’t even know what kind of pants he was wearing.

One hour till I’m home…

Was just thinking; another thing I noticed was that it’s so clear that Jared does not want to be touched by people, whoever came on stage, he avoided touching them. (though he was poking one guy all the time).
I’m not sure if I like Jared’s dominant stage attitude. In bed okay - on stage… Not sure. I do not like the arrogance, even though that might be just his act.

Random thoughts in the car. Gonna drive again now.
(yes i just stopped the car to write this :P)

Gonna try to get home right now.

Oh God i feel completely numb.
I don’t know what to think or feel.
I… God.

I was thinking about you guys all the time. I wished you were all there. I wish we could just sit down and drool over Jared.

Have to drive home now so good night my dear echelon…

Thanks!!